Greetings, Atiqah's th name. Call me whatever you want, I don't give a shit^^ add 2 to 3, then to 4 and 5 and that's my age! Not older kay :/ I'm sorry honey, but forever is never.

I 'm tired of hiding all my feelings behind a wide smile.
But yet again, what else can I do?

I 'm sorry if I have not been th kind of daughter you expect.
But I can 't stop being me.

I do know I 'm too secretive, but I just don 't know how to open up.
I 'm like a flower afraid to bloom?
Maybe I 'm not ready.
You have to understand me.
I 'm not like abang or Hazirah.
I 'd rather keep all th feelings to myself.

& Please trust me?
I sometimes feel it 's unfair cause you 're always concentrating at my weak points.
I 've always tried to be th 'good girl' you wanted me to be.
You do have to understand that times have changed, and certain things also.
I don 't really fight for what 's right with you because I don 't dare.
I just let what you think, to be it.

I 'm sorry if I 'm a total dissapointment to you at times, maybe all th time.
I 've been a total let down, and I 'm truly sorry.
Please understand that I 'm different and I get hurt by some things you say even if it dosen 't hurt th rest.
I just need time to get closer to you, and to loose my fear.